the long road to healthy

July 26, 2009

a fresh start

Filed under: C25K, family, fitness — karena @ 7:00 pm

Today, as promised, I am back on track and feeling great.  I’m using SparkPeople to track calories in and calories out, as well as for a little additional motivation.  Seeing the calories add up makes me thing I’ve been off on my “estimation” and that has probably contributed greatly to my lack of progress.

Today, I started something I’ve been wanting to do for years now.  I finally dug deep and started the Couch to 5K program.  I’ve always secretly wanted to run, but found it too embarrassing/intimidating to start.  But I finally decided I was more embarrassed to be in the shape I’m in than to be seen actually doing something about it!  The walk/jog actually wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be.  I found it very empowering to be out there doing it.  And I loved the time alone!  That’s a rare commodity in my life!

Unfortunately, that is also where a bit of a problem comes in.  My family was, I’m afraid, less supportive than I’d hoped they’d be.  My husband doesn’t like to have his evening rearranged — supper pushed back, having to be on  his own with the kids, etc.  He suggested I wake up early in the morning and go, until I pointed out that the toddler is usually up an hour early, and that would mean he would have to get up an hour early with him.  Nix that idea.  He said we’d try it and see how it goes with me running in the evenings.  But he didn’t sound happy about it.  To be fair, I should point out that he’s also concerned I might re-injure my knee.  But that’s not his primary concern.

My five year old was the big surprise.  Or perhaps I shouldn’t have been so surprised.  He’s always been very clingy, and because of our living situation, isn’t used to being left with someone else.  So he bawled when I tried to leave the house.  He doesn’t want me to go.  But man, I need some time to myself at some point!  I felt pretty badly as I left, but I did my best to shake that off.  I will not let them make me feel bad for trying to do something good for myself.  I’ve put everyone else first for years now.  I am going to squeeze some time to put me first into my life.  I have to.

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2 Comments »

  1. Every mom needs to have some alone time or they can not be a good mom!! Keep it up, and tell your hubby that it is for the WHOLE family that you are doing this. What would happen to the kids and him if you get too sick to care for them? That’s what I keep telling my family….I NEED THIS TIME FOR ME, and your 5 year old needs to stop being so clingy….it’s good for everyone. Trust me, I know, cuz my 5 year ofd is INCREDIBLY clingy, too!! I have finally gotten to the point where I CAN leave the house without him as long as it is not for more than 30 minutes or so. keep it up….it’s good for everyone!

    Comment by Ann G — July 28, 2009 @ 4:09 am

  2. Thanks for the encouragement, Ann. This is going to be a tough battle, methinks. My husband is great, but he doesn’t get what it’s like to be “at work” 24/7/365. It bothers him that I want to break into “family” time to take some time on my own. But short of hiring a sitter during the day, there really isn’t another option. We’re working on it!

    Comment by karena — July 28, 2009 @ 6:39 am


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